Post by brooke on Dec 13, 2010 15:11:22 GMT -5
brooke madison kostine.
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[/CENTER]FIFTEEN. SOPHOMORE. IRELAND. LINDSAY LOHAN. ADMIN EDIT.
so put on your best boys, and i'll wear my pearls. what i never did is done.
"Hi, I'm Brooke Madison. Actually, I'm Brooke Madison Kostine, but I don't use my last name, especially at academy. It's not that I'm ashamed of being a Kostine, it's just that I feel like it's a reason for people to make judgements about me before they even know me. I don't want to hear people automatically judge me and label me as a rich, snobby girl. Kostine Castle has been in my family for countless generations, and 150 years ago it became Kostine Academy. I really don't have any control over my name or my family's wealth, but I don't want to give reason for people who think I do to get angry with me. And like I said, I'm definately not ashamed; keep that in mind when you hear me cut off the teacher while they take attendance. I'm Brooke Madison, as far as you know.
"Uhm, well, I suppose next on the list of things to talk about would be my family. It's rather large if you ask me. There are five of us. I have a twin sister, and three older brothers. We're all relatively close with each other. I'm closest with my twin sister, who's two minutes younger than me. My brother's are all pretty close, but the oldest is definately... a little distant. He's very focused, and I think he's a little too wise for his age. Then again, that's what most people say about me. Teachers and any other adult would say that I'm 'wise beyond my years'. I don't think so. I just think that because I'm very patient and understanding that I can talk to anyone with that sort of... aura. I'm very easy to talk to, I think, and perhaps a little too nice for my own good. I'm not quite the most outgoing person, but once I'm comfortable with you I'm a little louder. I think before I speak because I don't like to mess anything up. I guess, it's because I don't have much time left, that I don't want to waste it with people being angry with me...
"Oh, about that? I have cancer; leukemia. I was diagnosed when I was eight. I went through chemo treatments, marrow transplants, the whole shabang. When I was nine and a half I went into remission until I was thirteen, then my body began rejecting treatment. The doctor gave me an estimated 6 months to live... I beat that by two years. I live each day to it's fullest, and try to be the best person I can be. It's so cliche, but really, when you're dying it's something that you want to do... Yes, I used to the word dying, because I am dying. And as a matter of fact, you are too, you're just dying a lot slower than I am. A lot of people ask me if I'm scared or what everyone's reaction was, how we spent the Christmas that we thought was going to be our last. In all honesty, I don't remember people's reaction, Christmas wasn't any different , and I'm not scared. Everybody else was for a while, but I sort of accepted it. I don't want to die and I'm not done fighting, I just understand that I'm going to sooner rather than later. It's okay to me. I'm more afraid of what I'm leaving than the actual leaving part (although that part worries me because I'd like it to be quick and painless). I want to leave this world the same way I came into it: quietly. I know people want to make the world stop for them, but I just want to leave a footprint on someone's heart - just one person. I want to know I touched someone and maybe changed them for the better. I want to open someone's eyes to the way the light hits the water on the horizon and for a moment you're blinded by it's beauty. Okay, I guess I'm getting a little ahead of myself, going all deep on you, but it's true! I want all of that, perhaps that's why I write so much, because it's easier to listen to things like that when nobody's actually saying it.
"Writing is the only thing I know for certain that can save me sometimes. I write everything. My feelings, lyrics that won't leave my head, words I want people to hear, but just can't say, and especially lists. Well, the obvious reason is because I want to, and I want someone to look back on them and smile for some reason or another because someday I won't be able to tell them those things. I make lists because I don't know what I want to do with myself besides make lists. I make lists of foods I want to try, risks I want to take, places I want to visit, just a very long list of things I want to do before dying. Now, I don't know how many things I'll knock off, but I like the idea of it - especially since I don't know what to do with my life because I don't know how long I'll live. Technically nobody does, but people assume they have a lot more time than me. Good for them."[/blockquote][/blockquote]
ALICE. SEVENTEEN. EST. 4 YEARS. PM OR ADMIN ACCOUNT.
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